Sometimes a thing gets so big that apologizing for it seems impossible!
Sometimes it takes a while to sort out what the thing even was in the first place–why you let it get so big…
All you know is that you hurt someone badly–but you can’t even figure out quite how, or what sent you to that place.
When you know how badly you’ve hurt someone, but things have returned to some kind of equilibrium–some kind of happy medium where you’re both amicable and friendly, etc… it can be pretty darn scary to bring up that hurt… The idea of apologizing can be even more daunting… because you never know! the person you hurt may still be–under all that calm and happy equilibrium–very hurt and angry. Bringing up the offense may incite their anger and awaken the pain and rage that you may well ‘deserve’.
In this case, our detente is rightfully attributed to a genuine forgiveness and compassion that God brought alive in my heart for you.
But you couldn’t possibly have known that–and that’s why I am so incredibly blessed and awed by the courage it took for you to bring it up so that you could apologize. that kind of humility is truly Godly, and that kind of courage is so Christlike!
Jesus was extraordinarily courageous! He defied cultural, spiritual, gender, sociological boundaries and talked to, and loved and forgave and healed people from all walks of life! He faced down the evils of this earth knowing full well that it WOULD incite anger and rage to the point of bringing Him to a brutal crucifixion…. but it was right and it was loving and it was what needed to be done, so He did it.
And you followed him in that demeanor in choosing to apologize that day. Thank you!
May you find yourself ever surrounded by His spirit as you walk in courage and humility. May your courage and humility be blessed and returned to you with safety and love, and may you find His redemptive and restorative love at work in your life daily!